I was so down about this particular situation today, I couldn't even do my school work. I just sat at my desk, staring at my discussion questions I was supposed to do for 10 minutes before I came to. 7 months into this marriage and it still doesn't feel like I'm married. To say a wedding, rings and all that other stuff doesn't matter is a damn lie and I refuse to believe otherwise. This is my first marriage and if it don't work out, I'm done. This will be my last. The whole way it went about and what happened before I got married and what I went through emotionally with my husband, I'm totally turned off from being married. If I get divorced, I won't be surprised if I start crying -- not because of the concept of divorce but because I should have gotten a dress, a bouquet and my family smiling at me in the pews. I feel robbed. The way I feel about this whole thing may be wrong or off but that's from someone on the outside looking in. You can't possibly understand how I feel about all of this.
The reason we're up in your grill about what time you're coming over, and the reason we're so good at communicating our own whereabouts, is that since the beginning of time our parents were making us report back to them about where we were and when we'd be home.
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Loving you is easy, but not being with you isn't. Thinking about you hurts, but not thinking about you hurts a lot more. The dreams I had with us were fun, but waking up knowing that it was just a dream made me feel alone.
There is a man who was dating a woman for a good 4-5 years. This woman though for a while was in love with this man and was always there for her, waiting on him to realize she would never leave him.
ts been occasions when I would wake up with this sense of someone watching me and low and behold, this fool [ex boyfriend] be at the end of the bed [never in the bed] staring at me. He doesn't notice I'm laying there watching him watching me because its dark in the room.
It kills me when a woman looks tight and the dude is a 42oz, remote control; video game zombie couch potato. The last song the Beatles sung together pretty much sums it up, "In the end, the love you take....is equal to the love you make."
Should I be concerned that the boyfriend I've known for 4-5 years now have no complaints about me and our relationship?
My boyfriend finds the dumbest shit to argue about.
I always hear people saying that they're tired of the single life and that they want a boyfriend/girlfriend or what not. Well sometimes being single is the best thing for some. Like me, I'm not single but lately I've been wondering would I be going through these life changes, insecurities and this lack of trust I have with someone if I was? I highly doubt that I would. As I sit; think, wonder, observe, and put things together.
January 30, 2012 by Lee
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