Crushspot.com [This blog is long]

For those who hate reading, you mind as well keep it moving because this isn’t the blog for you.

It’s 4:30 in the AM. Husband is sleep, son is sleep and I’m up watching CSI: Miami. So to ease my boredom I’ve decided to blog this morning. Some who know about Crushspot.com may stumble upon this site and see who site the blog belongs to and have something stupid to say when they post this link in a thread. I honestly don’t give a damn, just some things I want to say. I don’t really care what anyone else thinks at this point. It’s too damn early to care. Maybe I’ll care later.

This may be a disclaimer for those who know of this site and is thinking about signing up. Also for my readers, I will like to apologize in advance for the language  that will be in this specific blog. I will try to keep it as clean as possible. Moving on…

 I will try to make this as short as possible; no promises.

Crushspot.com was founded in 2005. The site consists of Detroiters, lurkers, top rate fiends, a few cool people sprinkled here and there, and the ones I feel sorry for. The site has always had a reputation for having the most assholes. Back when the site began, people showed no mercy. At the time I weren’t posting threads at all. I was what you called a ‘lurker’. Anyway, the people on the site didn’t hold back, someone was getting roasted every 5 minutes. When I began posting threads, people were cruel and mean, telling me to shut up and calling me out my name. My naïve ass would argue back and forth with them and at the same time take notice that to be on this site you have to be an asshole. So as years went by parts of my real personality was put on the back burner. Now I was telling all the n00bs what I felt about their threads. Now that I think about it, that’s pretty messed up. I was them at one point and here I am doing the same shit they did to me and in turn they’ll probably end up being molded into the very same asshole I was, or maybe not. Some managed to be pretty nice and civilized people. It’s a vicious never-ending cycle. nevertheless

Well enough about that. Lets get into the people who run the site today; or at least help run it; the administrators, and mods. Necromantic_Lust, Orgasmo, __________, and a few others I can’t think of at the moment were really good choices. They were fair, they didn’t abuse their powers, and they were cool. They’re admins now and I couldn’t be happier for them, I feel whoever made the decision to make them admins made great choices. Now LoveAFFAIR, and Nazareth_Savage are the last people who shouldn’t run any damn thing. Before I get to them, I have something I need to put out there. I was never the type to post a thread voicing a very biased opinion about someone just because boredom kicked into overtime. Talking shit just to see your font for the sheer sake of keeping up appearances I would assume takes a lot of work.

Anyway, Nazareth_Savage, this character enters threads ass first; that’s where his head is 90 percent of the time. The other 10 percent it’s up someone else ass. This last incident with him ticked me off more than I should have allowed. It light way insulted me. Who in the hell tells someone to get an i7 processor because their motherboard in their laptop blew? The amount of money it would cost to even get an i7 processor for a laptop let alone entertaining the idea of getting a motherboard to replace the one inside the laptop, you mind as well just buy a whole new laptop. But wait, that’s not what really pissed me off, It’s the fact that there was no logic behind ANY of that. An i7 chip set needs to be on a motherboard that takes that socket. Let me rewind a bit though, I’m getting a bit ahead of myself. Who in their right mind will even in entertain getting their laptop  raped and molested like that? All because of a battery? Also since when did a laptop stop working altogether because of the motherboard blew without water involved? My point is, this guy was all over the place telling this poor girl everything wrong. Which is why he shouldn’t be administrating any damn thing. There was this one girl on there, she couldn’t make a thread and he’s in there on her ass like white on rice. I felt sorry for her and should have said something but she was holding her own.

He tries to come off as this person whose well-educated but using those big words he think he know in the wrong context. Causing people to secretly dislike him every time he logged on. Seeing him make a thread pissed a few people off. I don’t know who told him this but, just because you’re taking up game design doesn’t mean you know a damn thing about the machine you’re using it on. You can twiddle away on a program and  be completely clueless about everything else.

Well onto the next unfortunate S.O.B I had the displeasure of fonting [don't worry grammar/English Nazi's I know that's not a word] to. This chick in particular got her panties too far up her ass. Especially about a certain someone I used to date years ago that also had or have a page on that site. I’m not going to even mention his name. Moving on. Sometimes I wondered how she could stand herself. very seldom did I ever see her have anything nice to say about anything or anyone. Then again, I didn’t pay attention to much of what she was saying to begin with but when I did…

She another person I should have said something sooner to. Whenever she got the right opportunity to do so, she will mention he who shall remain nameless, she would go in on him. Half of the time she got her facts from the crack of her ass. I ignored most of it, other things I didn’t see until late. She’s flippant and she have this persona that she don’t give a shit about anyone’s feelings and she’ll say what she has to say. At the same time she’ll talk all this shit about someone behind their back. Today’s word of the day is yes-hypocrite. The way she is online, the things she say to people and the people who actually can put up with her bullshit makes me wonder how small her circle of friends are in real life. But that’s none of my business. I don’t care that it isn’t either.

People have told others that they dislike these two people intensely but never told them to their face. They’re on a computer just like they are; why they’re afraid I don’t know but I sure the hell ain’t. It’s not a damn thing they can do to me. I’ve already been talked about, I’ve already had rumors spread about me on the site that I didn’t even know about until later. I’ll probably be put on one of those lists they’ll make in a thread close to the end of the year; a “looking back at this years most ‘epic’ and the most ‘tragic’ events” list. That’s just how bored and pathetic people get on there.

I never kissed anyone’s ass on there; for the most part I was myself. I liked anime, designed my own signatures, talked to people who were into the same things I were into. I pretty much kept the same circle of friends the entire time I’ve been on there. If y’all two were on fire, I wouldn’t even put the fire out with someone else piss. The internet is one helluva place.

I shouldn’t read any where about someone bringing up falsified shit about me either. Bringing up an old ass rumor some dead guy [may the bastard rest in peace] made up because he was having a tantrum because I dug in his ass ain’t got shit to do with the now. That’s what people who don’t have enough ammo or any new material do. They start reaching for shit in the past. I don’t have to do that.

Well I’ll be 24 next month and I think it’s time for a change. I’m a wife and a mother now. I can’t be doing the things I’ve done. I’m taking a step back and looking at myself. The shit I said and did on that site was pretty much uncalled for and I’m taking responsibility for my actions. Not a lot of people can do that. I’ve been thinking about making my exit from Crushspot.com for some time. It’s not really an age thing it’s more of a me thing and the people who can’t decipher from reality and the internet so I’ll just make my exit thing. I honestly hope that once they get up from that computer that they turn down the coonery and not give a damn about what anyone that is not of any significance to them have to say.

I just keep telling myself, they’re not paying my bills, feeding my child, putting money in my pockets, keeping a roof over my head, or anything else. They’re not helping me in the slightest so why should I care what they have to say? If anyone who’s a member of CS.com, take this blog how you want, it’s not going to make much of a difference to me. Those that don’t, if/when you sign up to that site you’ve been warned.

So wait a few months or more, post this in a thread, give me all the views , attention and hits you feel I should I have; I won’t even notice.

If you’re still feeling froggy and want to tell me how you feel, the comment section as well as the option to send me an email is open.