I’ve been asking myself for a very long time. When I’m around toddlers, infants, any child below 6 years of age they seem drawn to me. They reach out to me, they start crying hysterically when I leave the room when their mothers are sitting right next to them. Often times kids cling on to my pant legs and hang on to dear life if they get the chance. I don’t do or say anything to these kids, its the moment they see me its a done deal, they are going to try and find a way to cling to me until their mothers come and get them.

I have a family friend who had two kids, they’re like 8 and 6 now but when Makala was like 1 or 2 years old I remember sitting down next to her when she was in her car seat and she was sleep at the time and I decide to get up to go do something, I forget what it was, she woke up crying and reaching for me when I got up. I don’t look anything like her mother. I had to take her out of her car seat and sit her on my lap so she can stop crying. Don’t get me wrong, I can tolerate kids and when they laugh it just melts my heart; almost bring a tear to my eye. Its just that kids seem oddly attached to me and I only have to be around them one time. I remember this other time my friend I mentioned before took me over her Aunt’s house and she had a baby. Well her baby followed me around the house the whole time. They would watch and laugh at how she would crawl after me once I left the room. Good thing they had carpet down because I can usually sit down and not have to get up when I’m nervous but for some reason that day I had to keep getting up and stay moving.

Maybe I’m just paranoid or maybe kids can see something about me that I can’t. I don’t know but the child could have never seen me before and they would want me to hold them and smile at me and fall asleep in my lap. I’m not a kid expert but are kids that comfortable with total complete strangers? I don’t know but I don’t think they are. I’ve asked this to a few relatives and they don’t understand it either. They’ve seen these odd occurrences happen to me as well and they find it funny; I find it interesting, not funny. I’m not a communicative type of person and I truly don’t know what to do with a child that is sitting on my lap smiling at me and tugging on my ear.

My best friend told me that I should be happy that kids love me because when I have mine they’ll think I’m superwoman to them. Well sadly, the last time I went to the doctor, he told me I’ll never be able to have my own children. I should be sad but its not the end of the world. I never really wanted children so I guess its not a total loss.

I just need an idea to why kids look at me like I’m a character from Sesame Street and..dare I say it…Blues Clues. They have this “oooooh” look on their face when they’re reaching to grab my pant leg. It gets intense when I go to pick them up. They try to cuddle so deep into my arm it gets out right weird. What’s even more odd they aren’t hopping around or fidgeting around when I pick them up, I just sit them down on my lap and they look up at me and smile and try to grab my chin…with their mouth. I should try to stay away from kids when they’re teething; it shouldn’t be hard.

There have been suggestions that I work at a day care. The other workers there would love to get a break because all the kids would do is sit around me and look at me like I’m a huge bottle of cold milk; or a large teething toy.

For a while I found it adorable, cute even but that’s no longer the case. It seems it gets worse as I age.

Just thinking about them laugh though is making my day better. Whoever can sit and listen to a babies laughter and not feel the urge to laugh themselves has no soul. You cannot deny the sound of a child’s laughter, its impossible.

Well, I guess that’s all I have to say about this subject…if anyone have answers, feel free to enlighten me.